I’ve never been good at telling people…well anything. It’s not like I don’t say anything, I just don’t always say what’s on my mind. My brain doesn’t always work with my mouth.
Below are some things that I’ve wanted to say to people, but for whatever reason, I haven’t. Most of these sentences apply to more than one person or one occasion. Here they are:
- You mean a lot to me and that I’m proud to call you my friend.
- I actually do care, even if my actions tell you otherwise.
- I know I can be a loose cannon at times, but I mean well. Really.
- You are not as nice as you think you are.
- Thank you.
- I’m not scary.
- I really want to talk to you, but I’m so nervous of saying the wrong things.
- I thought we were friends.
- I didn’t tell you about the time I came to work on a holiday to set things right for you.
- I’m proud of you.
- Why do you treat me differently than the others?
- Please let me know what I did wrong so I can fix it.
- We need to see each other more often.
The Clockwork Pastor 
You said all these things beautifully, Dennis. Sometimes, just a simple, “Wait, I want to tell you something,” with a long breath, will help you to think of the sentence you want to say at the time.
Regarding #6, if people think you’re scary, it’s because they don’t understand. You might want to add, “I just have Aspergers,” to the end of that sentence.
And honestly, I know all of us feel like we want to say #9, but we’re here to wash feet. I think you haven’t said that one out loud because you’re a true disciple. 😉
Bless you for being the light of Jesus that you are.
Been there, done that. Or rather haven’t done that. Which is kind of the point. So many times I wish I’d been able to tell people that although I couldn’t take away their hurt I do care for them and want to support them. But the words never come and I’m left feeling like I’ve failed them.
Anyhow, while we’re on the subject… since meeting through our blogging I have come to feel a lot of respect for you and would be proud if you would permit me to call you a friend.
Alex,
I would be honored for you to be my friend. 🙂