When I was in high school, I ran track. I didn't run well, but I did run track. Practice would take place after school. I remember heading into the locker room to change, and passing by this front room set aside for physical therapy. Every time I passed by there were people my age chatting... Continue Reading →
Things I Wish I Could Say
I've never been good at telling people...well anything. It's not like I don't say anything, I just don't always say what's on my mind. My brain doesn't always work with my mouth. Below are some things that I've wanted to say to people, but for whatever reason, I haven't. Most of these sentences apply to... Continue Reading →
I Can’t Help Myself (Well, I Could with a Little Practice)
One of the things that my husband Daniel has observed is how I tend to just do things rather impulsively. He is correct, I do tend to just throw myself into things without planning. The reason for my behavior is because I have a weak executive function, a result of Aspergers. What is executive function,... Continue Reading →
Beyond the Bitchy Queen?
There are people in your life who've come and gone They let you down and hurt your pride Better put it all behind you; life goes on You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside -Don Henley, The Heart of the Matter I've come to the conclusion that I have to be the oddest... Continue Reading →
On Controlling My Tasmanian Devil
Aspergers is an interesting thing. Having an autism spectrum disorder means that you have communication issues. Because it can be hard to communicate with others and because you kind of live in your own little world, it's hard to know when you might be acting out. In my time as a pastor, I've sometimes acted... Continue Reading →
The Friendship Factor
After 44 years on this planet, I've come to a startling conclusion: I really suck at making friends. It's not that I don't have friends. It's just that I haven't been good at making close friendships. You have to understand something when it comes to people with Aspergers- since we miss social cues we basically... Continue Reading →
The Android in the Pulpit
Well, it's been over a month since I became the pastor at First Christian in Mahtomedi, MN. So far I haven't crashed the church into a tree. I'm still a bit surprised I'm doing this. I had started to convince myself that I just couldn't pastor a church all on my own. Someone who has... Continue Reading →
I’m Autistic. I Need a lot of Grace.
One of the things that I have learned since my diagnosis of Aspergers is my willingness to be more forgiving of people's mistakes. I'm not always good at that, but I try. I try because all I have to do is look at my own life and realize that I will make a ton of... Continue Reading →
The Spoon Theory
The last two days have been sort of wearing on me. It was busy, filled with a lot of people time that just wears me down and needing a time to nap-not as much to sleep as to just "power down." Some of this exhaustion is related to my Aspergers. Unlike others, someone with autism... Continue Reading →
Trees. Forest. Pastor.
One of the things that is common among folks with Aspergers is that they lack executive function skills. What's executive function? It's basically being able to see the forest from the trees. You can look at a tree in a forest and comprehend that it's part of a greater whole. What's different for someone with... Continue Reading →