The Trouble with “Normal”

It has been sometime since I wrote something on autism/aspergers, partially because I didn’t have anything I wanted to write.  But I stumbled accross an article on Facebook that reminds me of the situation that I face on daily basis. It’s been nearly 10 years since I was diagnosed with Aspergers or High Functioning Autism.  When I got the diagnosis, I was relieved.  It was something I could hang all of the difficulties I faced as an adult in relationships and employment. I was hoping that I could explain to my employers what was happening with me and that they … Continue reading The Trouble with “Normal”

Playing Checkers in a Chess World

  Foiled again. A few weeks ago, I got a call from a local organization looking for someone like me to interview for an open position.  I was quite excited and hopeful that I might get a new position to supplement my pastoral work and other part time job. They had talked about getting some information to me soon. This is where I made my big mistake more than once. When you tell someone with High Functioning Autism that you will do something soon, we expect that you will do this….well, soon.  In job speak, soon could mean later today … Continue reading Playing Checkers in a Chess World

The Importance of Dandelions

As I’ve looked back over my work history, there has been one overwhelming feeling that comes up over and over again: shame. Since I entered the workforce in my 20s, my job history has been one of seemingly disappointing people.  I never met people’s expectations of me.  It wasn’t for lack of trying.  If someone said I did something that was not up to par, I would try to be better.  But the damage was done and I was looked at as incompetent. When I got my diagnosis of Aspergers in 2008, I was hopeful that now I could find … Continue reading The Importance of Dandelions

Why I Hate Job Hunting

As said earlier, I lost my full time position on December 23.  This means that I have to look again for open positions. Some people are energized by the job hunt.  Not me.  It fills me with dread.  You feel that the cards are stacked against you, no matter how hard you try. It’s also hard for me to look for another job after the my experience at my soon to be former job.  I had worked hard in that position, innovating and doing things that hadn’t been done before.  And I still got laid off.  I know that it … Continue reading Why I Hate Job Hunting

Dennis Sanders, Sacrificial Lamb

So, a few days before Christmas, I found out that my position was eliminated due to budget cuts. Needless to say, I was devastated…and I still am a few weeks later.  The sad thing is that this isn’t the first time that this has happened to me.  I’ve received layoff notices more than once. It’s also part and parcel of my long work history, one where work and I don’t seem to get along. It’s not that I don’t want to work: quite the opposite, I love to work, I love being industrious.  But in the 25 or so years … Continue reading Dennis Sanders, Sacrificial Lamb